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CAKE COMA, or FML Friday











All hell broke lose inside my mouth yesterday. I could not stop eating cake. Cream-cheese icing is my enemy. My pants today are tighter than ever and I hate myself a little.

HOWEVER, I still dragged my ass to the gym with Liz and did about an hour of strength work. Realistically, that was closer to 40 minutes with rest and whatnot, which is why I only counted that much on my tracker.

All the icing and cake are estimates because I really have no idea. My first piece was very small, but then I had gobs of things. I regret it. It was yummy but really not worth it considering my weigh-in tomorrow. I've been very good today though and managed not to snack last night probably because my body has enough sugar reserves in it for two full months, so those are wins I guess. Chugging water today, going to hit the gym for a C25K workout after work, and cross my fingers to at least maintain my weight in the morning.

Weekend challenges: Derby party (which I am doing the shopping/snack layout form so really there is no excuse) and lunch Saturday at Dixie Crossroads, where they have seafood and vegetables. So again: no excuse. INO!

Hope everyone has a great weekend! XOXO

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lizblizz
May. 3rd, 2014 12:49 am (UTC)
Bwahaha. I was thinking the same thing! I was all with her until that line, and then I was like: "Well, crap. My lowest weight ever as an adult was 145. Guess I'm a fat ass."

I'm all for positive reinforcement, not into shaming whatsoever.

Now on to my actual comment: Jen, I think your issue is clearly mental/emotional far more than physical. Your diet is the hardest aspect for you - you know you're physically tough and even though you've gained weight, you're still fit! I have no clue how to help you ignore the impulse voice, because 10 tbsp of peanut butter is clearly a binge and NOT rational!

However - I do have one suggestion. I think a common thing I've noticed over the years is that you are definitely an "all or nothing" person. You are either SUPER strict on your diet (to the point of not really allowing yourself anything fun in your daily food intake) OR binging on chocolate, icing and peanut butter. I think if you incorporated small portions of sweets into your daily routine (and planned for that little treat each day), you might have less of an issue with binging. It's far easier to work off 2-6 points of a treat rather than 67 points of a binge.

<3 Also - I just joined Planet Fitness! WOOHOO!

yzztik
May. 3rd, 2014 01:09 am (UTC)
I'm sorry. I did not mean to shame anyone :( but I knew that was near her starting weight that she did not want to be at and she told me she wanted me to give her tough love.

Nothing wrong with being at that weight at all. Everyone has different goals and different body compositions and wears weight differently.
jenislosingit
May. 3rd, 2014 02:19 am (UTC)
Agreed. Like I know you're 5'1"-5'2" and pretty small-boned like me, so 120-130 definitely makes sense for you. Liz/Danielle, I don't think that number would look right on either of you.
lizblizz
May. 3rd, 2014 03:38 pm (UTC)
Yeah, my original goal was 130 back in the day. I got to 145 and although I still had some flab in my midsection, I really can't imagine being even 15 pounds less than that. I think when I'm fit, I end up with a more "athletic" frame since I'm just a curvy body type in general. I'm just not ever meant to be a twig - too much boobs for that. I've set my goal to be around 150 because I was able to maintain that weight for a long time. I think it's a happy spot for my body, and looking back at those photos, I think I look amazing!

Me at 145... aka... two of my motivation photos:
Phi Sig Banquet 2008. - I can still wear that dress because it's stretchy, but it does NOT look the same. LOL.

Beach bod 2008
jenislosingit
May. 3rd, 2014 10:03 pm (UTC)
That makes a lot of sense because ummm yeah you looks AMAZING in those, wow! And you seriously haven't aged a day either.
yzztik
May. 3rd, 2014 01:23 am (UTC)
I agree with the all or nothing comment. I have something sweet almost every single day, wether it be a few dark chocolate hershey kisses, ice cream, cookie, whatever, but I budget for it. That is why I like MFP because it tracks but calories in and out. So I can see just how much extra that run or bike or walk is and if I want more sweets, I need to not sit on my ass all day :)
jenislosingit
May. 3rd, 2014 02:19 am (UTC)
I should pre-track my sweets too, but maybe give it a month or so until I allow sweets in the apartment, hah.
jenislosingit
May. 3rd, 2014 02:23 am (UTC)
Kitzzy gets me - she knows I take to tough love well. And she always delivers it very matter-of-factly and with solutions, which is really helpful for me. She is my Jillian Michaels lol.

You are 100% right on all of this. That is what happens when Gryffindor passion and stubbornness and meet Slytherin perfectionism and ambition. I do need to budget for sweets and be OK with that much. Thanks. :o)

YAYAYAY!!! I'll see you Monday night! ♥
celestialcure
May. 9th, 2014 02:43 am (UTC)
I'm in suspense....did it work?! Budgeting for some sweets every day, that is.

And yeah, add me to the FML I'D MAIM TO BE 150 AGAIN club too. Well, perspective, right? Even 175 is better than 208, which is where I started this time.
jenislosingit
May. 9th, 2014 04:37 pm (UTC)
Ummmmm...yeah, no, LOL. I've been an asshole this week to about the same level as last week, BUT I'M STILL COUNTING. Slow and steady progress? IDK. We'll see.

TRUDAT bb. Perspective FTW. I'm going to be so stoked to see 130s again.

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